Verve

I named this blog after a dreamy psychedelic shoegaze tune by The Verve (then simply called Verve).



I heard this song on Pandora years ago, and it led me to discover the beautiful and surreal album on which it can be found, A Storm in Heaven.

I chose it primarily because of how anxious I was to arrive here in Finland; I was still mired in schoolwork and I felt weighted by countless unfulfilled obligations. In a word, I was restless. "Already There" seemed to describe my state-of-mind with a certain precision.

Now that I'm here, it's the music rather than the title that seems to encapsulate things, namely the utter surreality of my life. I had other plans, other ideas, other goals and other values not two years ago. My life is wholly different than I ever imagined it would be at this or any other point in my life. In a sense, I feel as if I haven't affected this reality whatsoever, and that I'm just surfing a current of random chance. Of course, that's completely false, but knowledge of my own action doesn't lessen this surreal feeling. For the last week or so, I've been reveling in the odd limbo in which I'm floating now.

There's a note of bitter somewhere in the midst of all that sweet, but it's okay.